Marriage...I'm not so sure?

To explain, a quote from 'Breaking Dawn':


"How did people do this – swallow all their fears and trust someone else so implicitly with every imperfection and fear they had – with less than the absolute commitment that Edward had given me? If it weren’t Edward out there, if I didn’t know in every cell of my body that he loved me as much as I loved him – unconditionally and irrevocably and, to be honest, irrationally – I’d never be able to get up off this floor."

Unsure, but has time to think,
Krista

Things that bug me..

Never tell someone hang off the edge of a cliff, "Hang on! Don't let go!"
I mean what ELSE are they going to do? They KNOW that if they let go they die.

When people hear a mysterious sound in a movie, and...they go toward it?
What the crap?!

The saying, "It could be worse." I hate that.
After saying that things always get worse.

Never say famous last words, because they could be your last words.

Eye roll,
Krista

Something Else

The weeks are drifting silently past,
In this gloomy world I feel miscast,
And these dismal clouds never seem to go away,
No matter how I push into the fray,

That's when I heard it,
And lost my heart I hate to admit,
Yet somewhere, it still lives and breathes my air,
Until there is none left to spare,

Not in love and not in hate,
And certainly not relying on fate,
But something deeper than any of those,
I can feel it inside me and there it glows,

Maybe to replace my heart,
But will it too...soon depart?
Or is it mine…This raging passion that intertwines.

...growl...

Is it possible to absolutely want to kill a person, but still care for them so much that you'd rip apart ANYONE who tried to hurt them? Gar!!! And you don't want to kill them because they being a jerk, but because they just so incredibly kind-hearted!!! ARGH!!! Then, you can't stop thinking about them? Because..well they're just being so nice. Blarg.

Stupid Subconscious, it can be so embarassing...and a hassle,

Krista

Someday...

Someday, I want to live by the sea. When I get up in the morning the first thing I want to hear is the soft lap of the ocean on the shore. The air so fragrant with salt and sun will whisk around thru open windows, and then race back out to the wide blue. I want a house with Terracotta tiles, and grape arbors, and roses...by the sea.

Wistful,

Krista

Empty-Hearted

I finally understand why my heart has been fighting me these past few days, why it's been straining valiantly to free itself from my chest. I've been keeping it locked away, but all I'm locking up is a emtpy cell, because it already belongs to someone else. It's not my heart anymore...

Content in a moment,

Krista

Pacing

I wonder...think it would be easier if I weren't afraid of every one's opinion of me. Maybe, I'd actually be able to think straight, and not have so many doubts tugging at my heart. But, because I do care it makes me want to be a better me, one that I don't have to look back on and cringe.

But again, there lies a problem...I keep worrying about the future, and I haven't taken care of the present. I feel so small, so insignificant sometimes that I guess I forget you have to build the fire before it can burn.

All one yet detached,

Krista

Dear Soul,

I have no delusions of magical happenings that will fix my problems, but that does not stop me from wishing there was more tangible magic in this world. Note I say tangible, for I have seen magic in my life. It lies in nature, in every creature howling to the sky, and the sky who hears it, the trees and the wind that makes them speak, the water and the dazzling fire inside it.

But we as people are always on the edge of such things, only pressing our hands against the glass, but never permitted to go beyond it. Sometimes, I wish just for moment, I could howl like the wolves so I could release my buried feelings to the heavens...all of them in one single rising note...forever.

Stargazing,

Krista

To Clarify

I made this new blog because well I needed a place to spill my "secret heart", and not have to worry about it being judged on a daily basis. The only way anyone will know of its existence is if they choose to.

Just,
Krista